One Year Ago Today...

was a day that forever changed our lives!

I was tired, very tired!  We were about to end our term and were getting ready to return to the States in October.  We were starting to pack and deciding what to take and what to store and leave behind.  We were trying to squeeze in as many last minute ministry trips as we could.  We were very unsure about our future- whether we'd be able to return to the mission field or not and just what our future held.  There was a lot of uncertainty in our lives.  And, have I mentioned I was tired!

I was a week late starting my period.  I had told David, but we didn't think much about it (it wasn't the first time that had happened in my life).  I had assumed it was because of all the stress I was under at the time.  That morning David decided that he wanted to know for sure whether or not I could be pregnant.  I thought it was a waste of time because surely NOT.  We had gone to the local grocery store to buy groceries and while I was shopping, David went to the pharmacy and bought a test.  I couldn't believe he did that.  As soon as we got home, he wanted me to try it.  I waited about two hours before I could get the nerve up.  I didn't want to be disappointed and tried to put it off as long as possible. 

Finally, I gave in and took the test.  It was a LONG wait to see the results.  We joke now that it not only turned blue but navy. haha.  I immediately burst into tears and almost quit breathing.  To say I was in shock was an understatement.  David was on cloud nine from that day on- almost giddy.  It took a little longer for it to hit me. 

The next day we went to a local lab and had blood drawn to test again.  It too was positive.  After that it got a little scary.  I had a lot of early bleeding and had to have blood drawn a good bit.  I had to get several shots as well.  There were many days during those first few weeks that we were certain I had lost the baby.  There was one night in particular that we both cried ourselves to sleep and had little hope.  But, praise the Lord, it all worked out well and after the first trimester I had little or no problems.  Overall, I actually had a wonderful pregnancy and have missed it greatly since giving birth to Cruz back in May.  This past year has been the most amazing year ever and I would gladly do it all over again.  Even in the hardest, sickest of days I was grateful just to be pregnant.  I tried to treasure as much of it as possible.  I had waited a LONG time for it and wanted to enjoy every second of it.  I am so very thankful that I was able to experience it. At my age, it seemed like an impossible thing.  But, as we already know, with God, all things are possible. 

Now as I look at my precious four month old baby boy my eyes still fill with tears.  Being his Mom is the best thing ever!  I feel more blessed than I ever have.  He has changed everything about our lives, but in a great way.  We can't imagine life without him, life before him, and just how sweet life with him is going to be. 

One year ago today... a day I'll never forget, a day I'll always remember, and a day I'll always cherish!

Here are a few photos we took back on Tuesday, September 29, 2009